edging closer

As the year/world(whichever comes first) nearing its end, something inside me changed.

My hormone's peaking up, big time!

A proof of that. Remember that 17yo boy that I talked bout few posts back? We met up last Monday....at my house. Went to pick him up at Putrajaya and brought him home. So u can imagine what it led to. Still no sex but surely it ain't just chatting and exchanging information.

The urge to go out, have fun, laid and getting laid, fuck and getting fucked; seriously I never have this urge before and it's creeping me out a bit.

This is no more than just a phase, been bugging me for days already. The only barrier between me and those helluva is the uncertainty of not knowing what gonna happen if I ever step beyond this line and never getting back again.

Still, it never stops me from preparing some.........'options' ready if I am really determined to lose it. I still have my standard for such stuff. My Sifu said safety first even for hook up. Get to know the guy and be comfortable before agreeing for a meet up. Avoid secluded and doggy place for the 1st meet.

So far, I been talking to few guys already that I have an inkling that they want nothing more than just sex. At least they are decent enough to hold a conversation for now. Got talking to one couple, an Australian and Malaysian chinese. Been talking to one of them for 3 days already and today he dropped the hint saying, "maybe we can hook up sometimes" and I been so daring answered "I wont mind."

Something's clearly not right with me. Blame the flu! XD

Love,
me