Of chasing and been chased

I want to be chased, for a change.

I mean it's nice to be the one giving and providing the care and emotional support but I'm still just a petty human in the end. I need to recharge myself every now and then and feel the thrill of knowing someone u like is trying to get ur attention as well.

I can't deny how happy I be to wake up and see a message on my phone greeting me first thing in the morning. U know what people said; I want to be the first thing u think of when u wake up and the last thing in ur mind before u fall asleep.

Maybe that's why I treat most guys that I dated the same routine when I just starting to get to know them. I'll be texting them and chatting with them even from morning as long it doesn't bother their work and carry it all the way into the night but it will be for the first few weeks only. After that, I will just reduce it and observe his reaction. If he just ignores me and doesn't text me not even once before he starts working, I'm pretty much figured out where I stand and what I should do.

Not surprisingly, most guys I dated failed except L and Monkey. Maybe I put too much expectation on others and I shouldn't expect that people will treat me the way I treat them.

Easier said than done, as always.

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