How are u doing, J? Wish everything is going well on your side. I'm pretty sure u're busy right now preparing and packing for the next stage of your life. U must be excited, no =) It has been your dream all these while to move out and live in different country.
Sorry it took me so long before I tried to reach u back. Never imagined that it would take such a long time to heal and accepting such truth. I suppose u could guess but knowing u has been the best thing so far for me this year. The laughter and the tear, the pain and the joy, the story that we shared; u loosen me up the way nobody could have ever done. Even my close friends can never make me agreed to sing karaoke but not u. That session has been my one and only karaoke session till now.
J, I won't beat around the bush. I admit that I blame u after things went spiraling down, that I felt angry towards u for doing what u did but no matter what..........I can never bring myself to hate u. Deep down, I understand what u did was right. It was what's best for me. Things don't happen the way we want it to be but rather the way it's supposed to be.
I miss everything, even the arguments we had because it was..................with u.
Rugrat said the first love will always be special. So do u. Yes, I love u. I have never tell u this in person and I regret it now. Given choice, I wish that we would have meet in different circumstance, not few months before u're scheduled to go US.
J, u are no longer the small, timid boy that I met 7 months ago. U have grown up and are full with confidence now, unfazed by challenges and ready to take on life. I have nothing to worry about u anymore. Still, if u ever need someone to talk to, u know where to find me. I will always be ready to listen to.
Wish u all the best and all the success for your degree life. Hope u will find happiness there, one that u deserved. It's time to start to enjoy life and live the way u want to be. Find a nice guy, get married and don't ever come back k! hahahaha
*hug kiss*
Love u always,
Fid
p/s: lets fulfill the promise we made during my birthday one day, ok =)
Hugs!!!
ReplyDeletehugs tight, THC
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