The passing away of my sister really taught me how I actually deal with death.
And it was by not thinking of it. This was the first time my eye will be wet with tear whenever I think of someone. Even my grandma that I was so close to with last time didn't bring this much effect onto me.
Sometimes when I was just lying around or riding back home from uni, the thought of her will come and I just become sad. Just like that.
I remembered when I just received the news of her demise, I just shut it off and pretended as if it was nothing. I went out, stayed with my friend for that night and live my day as usual. Of course my friend at that time didn't know about that news yet.
Only the next day when I was on my way back home, resting my shoulder on L while he's driving me back home, the tear just cannot be held back anymore. Reality kicked in and it hit me hard. No sound, I just kept tearing.
We all have our own way to deal with death and this is my way. I won't say I remember her always but when I did, I will look up and smile. U are there right, sis =)
Love,
me
My condolences, again. I never really did get the cause though. It's definitely hard, I can't imagine my self.
ReplyDeleteyeah, I never imagine it gonna be that hard. thanks tempus =)
DeleteMy condolences. (:
ReplyDeleteThanks Aiden =)
Deletemy condolences, Soul. I always thought u were really brave and strong the way you handled it, I guess sadness is inevitable, but it's about moving on. Anyway at least to me or whenever around me you seemed chill and fine with it, I know deep down it must have hurt so much. I guess that would be what your sister wanted. Never forget her, but sometimes there is a higher providence at work and, we just have to accept it, and move on. U always have us bro
ReplyDeletethanks Jung =P yeah we all have to at certain point. At least been with u guys I can put it behind and keep enjoying what comes =)
DeleteMy condolence again.....i always say to myself if i cried for my loved ones that had passed away they will be sad...and hence...i didn't cried....
ReplyDeleteCrying once a while is okay but not all the time. Thanks Ash =)
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