I'm not sure how many of u guys remembered a post by rotiboy with regard about been religious and gay at the same time and he requested opinion from others with this issue. This was my response(link) for that particular question.
Maybe it's time to rethink my opinion about it as I have changed.
I can say nowadays I am no longer as religious as I used to be 2 years ago. My prayer is less, I broke every single rule as far my knowledge goes; in short, I'm no longer adhere to it as much as I used to be. My view changes as well. It was no longer Us versus them; there's only All of Us.
I'm no longer concern whether which religion is the right path to salvation or whose holy book has more scientific evidence than the others. I have liberalised myself from been bound down by a label.
But despite all these, there's a small part of me that always feel 'tainted' in the eye of my religion no matter how hard I tried to shake off that feeling. It becomes really obvious few months ago.
My family had been planning to go for a pilgrimage to Mecca and along the way, to stop at somewhere to thanks those that helped during my sister's funeral. I really, really wanted to go but I told them I can't because of my labwork.
That was only partially true. The main reason why I don't want to go is because I don't feel worthy of stepping on the holy land what with all the sins I have committed.
I'm tainted.
Will this feeling ever go away? I have no idea. I'm happy now, there's no doubt about that but maybe been raised up in a conservative environment, it gonna take a lots of will to be comfortable when I step away from the comfort zone of my religion.
Love,
me
my view is that, it's ultimately between me and God.
ReplyDeleteAnd at least as a Christian, and as far as holy scriptures are concerned, they were interpreted, translated and written by human beings. They might have been 'touched' by God when penning down those words, but they God himself certainly didn't write it.
Just my personal opinion.
yeah, that's what I been telling myself also. Dont care about what others did, none of my business
DeleteHmm, I guess I was introduced to the right religion to begin with? anyway, religion is a way of life, and it is our screwed up country system making is impossible and autocratic because of sheer sense of unnecessary insecurity.
ReplyDeleteFor what its worth, its always not about what the religion says. Go over and take a look for what the religion has installed for it.
It is called, ehipassiko in Buddhism; meaning come and see for yourself.
OMG wtf ehipassiko? never heard of it but so COOOOL, will look it up hahahha
DeleteBuddhism is a religion? hehe
DeleteI dont know what other religions had installed but I know what mine has and it aint that pretty for me. But nonetheless, given it benefit of doubt because maybe I have overlook ertain things
I always feel that (if any), there will only be one God, no matter which religion you practice. it's just worshiping him/her in different ways and form. Therefore when I see people fighting because of different religion it looks so stupid.
ReplyDeleteIf your heart is true and as far as humanity is concern you did not cause harm to others it's as good as it can get. We have seen high ranking religious people around the world with rape case, corruption, abuse, scams...or even ordinary self proclaimed holy-and-religious people scrutinizing others but are, at the end of the day, no less different than other scumbags. Worse if they use God's name for their own advantage. Disgusting.
I'm on the same boat with this belief :D.
Deletehahaha that's quite a view that's gaining popularity nowadays. Too bad some people still want to make their the one and only way out =)
DeleteDear Soulchild,God is all loving,all compassionate,all forgiving.it's natural process when we did something wrong we felt bad.not many people aware but actually Prophet Lot's(A.S) people and us is different.
ReplyDelete(me being saying this doesn't mean i'm a good person,i'm a sinner as well)
There will be hordes of people out there ready to argue with that statement. nonetheless, I would just say we go down the road that give us most comfort
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